The light that burns twice as bright burns half as long.

~Tyrell, Blade Runner

Is it true that something that burns brightly will last a shorter amount of time?  I find myself facing this question in the near future.  In a few weeks, Angel will leave the US for good.  She is by far the best girlfriend that I have ever had, and definitely the coolest girlfriend I know (I mean, I can’t think of a cooler girlfriend, really).

Anyway, the light between us has burned quite brightly, but it is in the back of both of our minds that maybe the reason this relationship is so intense is because we have such a short time together.  When we got together, there was always the understanding that this would probably end up being a long distance relationship.  The more time I spend with Angel, the harder it is for me to cope with the idea of a long distance relationship.

On the other hand, I can’t see any other way of resolving my passions in life with my love for her.  So, in about 2 weeks, she heads back to Malaysia, and in a month, I head out to follow my dreams around the world and eventually back in Australia.  We won’t see each other again for half a year.  When a relationship is this intense, it makes us wonder whether it will be the same when we see each other again.

I really hope I feel the same, and she feels the same too.  It’s just that I’ve never felt this way about anyone before… and I really like the way it feels.  This is the type of relationship I want to be in.  But, it is a scary thought that it might not be the same when I get back to her.  Everything I know tells me that this is right.  And all I want is some reassurance or a guarantee… but we both know there are no guarantees in life.