Sometimes in your life you have to make tough decisions.  Sometimes you see into the future and the answer isn’t clear.  Afterwards, when you look back, you know it was the right decision.  I’m so sick of fighting the inevitable.  My mind says one thing, but my heart says something else.  We waste too much time thinking, never doing… life is an experience, but too often, the choices we make are not clear.

How long must I waver to make a decision?  How much is enough time to know if something is right and something is wrong.  I don’t have the answers.  No one does.  Will taking more time give me a better idea?  What does it mean when some days I want so badly to do one thing, then the next day, I feel the opposite path is the correct one.

One day I will get tired of deciding and just make a decision.  Be it good or bad, it will be my choice.  It will affect my present as much as it will affect my future.  I’m sick of responsibility, I’m sick of obligation.  People spend all their time thinking about how to fulfill one thing or another.  It’s hard to think of yourself anymore when everyone else makes you feel like crap for being selfish.  People need to stop thinking about this as a competition where you win or lose.